accepted the fact that … following pathless paths … could be a way of living.
I was saying … “Stop it!” … cause my intuition was whispering me too loud that i need to stop following a certain path … but … i was only replacing the story itself with another similar story.
And that was my …. way of living.
Well … it was funny cause … i continued to pretend i did not knew why things were like that … but …
Time was passing … and i felt stronger and stronger the energies beyond reality.
I was understanding the illusory dance of energies …. beyond
my reality … but … i continued acting like a person with a paralyzed mind … always ending up … with a paralyzed … soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
Life is very well defined in short …. Quotes.
And we really don’t
need so many words
to define reality …
I once had the idea of publishing a book with all my quotes that i’ve written over time.
The idea came to me after reading a collection of quotes … also published as a book … written by the romanian philosopher Emil Cioran.
My book was entitle … “Life seen as a … quote”.
After publishing it … i thought it was a real stupid idea … but i see people are downloading it all the time to read it.
The collection of quotes were written in about 2 years … but what is funny is that all those thoughts are so, so … contradictory that i can’t even believe it … randomly reading them.
It looked like time allowed as my soul to be dominated by all sorts of … energies.
… contradictory energies.
But … i would dare to say today … illusory contradictory energies.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
I finally understand that my life was a journey of … experiencing all sorts of feelings and emotions.
A huge spectrum … of all those moments that defined my existence.
Imagine now … that all of us would keep a diary … with the most important thoughts that dominated our minds … but also of the feelings that we felt strong in our souls. It should be … at least … an important exercise.
One that we should … try.
… even from today.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
18
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philosophical essays
Ghosts … are real. And they influence the present moment a lot.
But they are just reflections of different pieces of our souls.
It happens that i have a property … which i invested a lots of time and energy to build it.
It all took about 5 years to take the project to an end … even if looked like … at that time … that most probably i will never finish it.
But …. I did it.
I had this obsession into my mind to finish it … and … it just happened.
In those years … even if i was reading a lot … i did not knew that … even the success is illusory. So … i saw all as a victory.
I won the war with the builders, with the utility companies, with all the ones that told me that the project itself is a stupid idea … etc etc.
Somehow … i was happy … not really understanding what might happen next.
I’ve rented all the houses … and then problems started to appear … one by one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
19
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
Broken pipes, problems with the sewage, problems with the quality of water, broken cables etc etc.
And maybe the worst was that i had 2 houses in fire … that were probably caused by some electrical problems.
But later on … real problems started to appear… with all my tenants.
We’ve started to argue on different problems …
They made me complains at all the authorities… ending up in court also.
And it all became a non ending story … that was repeated on and on and on.
My project proved to be a huge problem for my daily life … In fact … a horror.
And it all started from the desire of more.
I wanted financial independence… and i thought that this is going to be my ticket to that financial stage.
But ….
Things proved to be … different … than i thought.
… totally different.
And it took me 2 years and a half to realize what was the mistake i’ve done … that i could not enjoy the success that i’ve succeeded to finish that place. I found a trick … that really worked.
I stoped going there.
And … suddenly all problems … just stopped.
I could not believe it.
I’ve worked for building a residential complex … for 5 years … as into the end to not be allowed to go there.
And i really had an immediate response … each time when i’ve tried to do that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
20
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
So … only one trick … worked … not to go there anymore … even if it sounded so, so ridiculous. I could not believe it.
And also … could not accept it.
It was… in fact … hilarious.
Work so much … for so many years … and …
After spending so much time and energy … the place refused to allow me to come in visit.
But … finding out the trick … i’ve started to apply it into a dogmatic mode … hoping that i’ll avoid the problems.
not really understanding what the problem was. I was so, so … intrigued ….
On the other hand … i knew i have to meditate more and more … and at the right time … the answer will come to me. I re visualized … the story.
I came back in time … and remembered about all the argues i’ve had with the builders working there … with the architects, with the people from city hall, with the ones from the utility companies …. etc etc … and finally understood that this was the energy in how i’ve built the place.
It all looked very nice into the end … but … the residual energies … of that war i had to win with everyone involved into the project … was a huge problem.
And most probably the ghosts … of the past … reappeared each time when i’ve been coming there.
All was repeated … into a different form. On and on and on.
It was like … even if i succeeded… i continued the war … fighting with … the ghosts from my past.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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It’s all a real story …. and it’s difficult to accept for me too …
even if i denied it for long, long time.
It all started from my desire of more and more and more ….
forcing people to join accomplishing my dream. But it all became a dream … that i could not enjoy. At the end of this journey … which was my dream of obtaining the financial independence… i was speaking about energies beyond reality …. ghosts from my past … and other weird blablablas.
I was indeed…. ridiculous.
Or maybe not … and that was the reason why i’ve decided to write a book about what is beyond reality.
At least i could speak … in front of readers that were interested about … the subject.
I smile … understanding what the desire of more … made with my life.
I smile … realizing i need to fight with … ghosts.
But at least … i’ve started to see … beyond reality.
… and i loved it.
Understanding why reality is the way it is … seeing how stupid i could be … just because i wanted more and more ….
ending up … continuing being involved in a stupid war … but this time with invisible enemies … was creating the image of a ridiculous life.
but it was … my life. I had to deal with it.
with all those illusions… that were destroying… my nerves. I continued my analyzes… meditating more and more of the influences of the ghosts of the past into the present moment
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
22
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and why reality looks the way it looks today … but it was so damn difficult to accept that i was the … guilty one.
Damn it ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
23
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Living karmic scenarios
an amazing chance of following the path of awakening
Years ago … i’ve lived an episode that later on … i’ve realized it’s a karmic one.
My friend Paul, which was also involved into this … but mainly as an observer… was laughing of me … as he would be watching an amazing comedy.
In fact … he could not stop himself to continue laughing. Today … looking back in time … I understand the karmic meaning of all … and i also laugh … when we talk about the subject.
But you see … the Universe is giving us new similar tests all the time, so recently i’ve lived the same episode, but into an another form.
Other people, other places … but the same message beyond all what was going on.
My friend … could not stop himself to laugh … again.
He was laughing and laughing … and laughing.
Of course … being friends … we’ve allowed to make fun … each of the other.
We looked … at the other side … seeing the illusion of the self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But this time …. realizing the illusion … i’ve started to laugh
too.
Laugh of the whole situation.
Laugh seeing my friend … laughing of me.
I’ve started to realize when it’s about a karmic stories.
and understand them. I was not mad anymore.
I was not frustrated … either.
I finally realized … that not Paul is laughing of me … but the Universe.
I was sent in weird situations… but … something changed at a difference of … those 3 years.
Same story … but with different karmic characters… sending me the same message.
It was a story … controlled by some energies beyond reality. First time …. I was very annoyed … angry … frustrated … but
fortunately… my reaction in front of the second story was different.
Seeing my friend that could not stop himself … laughing and laughing … i’ve realized … the illusion.
The karmic illusion … or maybe i should say … the karmic test of life.
Should be irrelevant to give you details …. as the stories could look like in one million different forms … but … the most important thing to remind … is to ask ourselves …. “What if this is not what it looks like?! What if God … the Universe … is giving us a test … again?!”.
So … maybe we should look with attention at the signs around ourselves.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
25
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philosophical essays
Don’t mind that someone is laughing of us.
… cause … that might be a clear sign.
Keeping the eyes opened… is a good key for understanding life.
And … realize that beyond the nonsense… there is always a karmic message … that is whispering us something … having the purpose of making us follow the path of awakening. The real … awakening.
But of course… even that might be illusory.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
In love with the Devil
that looked so much as an Angel …
For me socializing … it’s kind of a hobby.
I’ve always liked it.
And that gave me the chance to talk with thousands of
people … of different ages … both men and women.
Yesterday … i’ve had the chance to meet again … Karl.
He was coming to city … so we’ve drink a coffee together.
Soon after finishing the talk about some businesses we’re
doing together … Karl started to tell me about his love life.
“Gabriel … my friend!
She is the perfect woman.
Blonde, tall, beautiful legs, nice connection … amazing sexual connection…
She’s like no woman which i’ve met before.
In fact …. she’s probably the best woman the Universe sent
to me.
But …. you know … how it is …
There’s always …. a but …
I believe she’s a devil … having the face of an angel. … and that all it’s an illusion.”
I was listening to him … and i almost started to laugh.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
but showing me a photo with her … i was amazing. She was indeed … very beautiful.
Most probably …. an amazing woman …. but my friend thought … that this angel … is the Devil itself.
“Karl … what if you are wrong?! Are you sure of what you feel?!” “Yes. I am sure.
I feel the energies beyond reality. I know what i feel …”
The discussion itself … became almost a nonsense.
We were talking about … an extremely beautiful lady … that my friend … defined so contradictory.
one time as an angel … as few minutes later to tell me … she’s actually … a devil.
I even wanted to ask my friend if he is … a little idiot. How can we have such contradictory perceptions?! How can we define the same person in such a way?! Maybe … my friend lost a little bit his mind.
or maybe he’s not seeing very clear reality.
Or … probably he’s having an emotional balance … and i should just smile … listening to his theories. But how funny is life.
We define so, so often …. the perfect case scenarios for a
beautiful life … especially with our life partners … as into the end to realize … when we meet that person … that it’s all just …. an illusion.
Or … maybe we don’t really believe that perfect scenarios … could ever become … real.
I was continuing to smile to my friend … but ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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philosophical essays
Dreaming of a woman …. having the
experience of prostitute … that will come into our lives … directly from the monastery.
… a total nonsense
When i was in middle school … I’ve discussed with the boys … lots of times about women.
Then … in high school … again with lots of my colleagues from those times.
In college … discussions did not stoped.
We continued debating … the subject.
Well … some idiots were talking about football … and other idiots about … ladies.
Today …. I am 45.
When i meet my friends … we talk again and again …. about
… the same subject.
It should be ridiculous to say i am an expert … when it comes about that …. but still … i had so many talks over the years … that maybe i deserve a medal.
This is maybe … one of the reasons … why i’ve decided to write books of … love essays.
Not being … but believing … i am expert … who understood what the feminine spirit it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
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But .. today … i don’t want to talk again about ladies … No …
Just about our perceptions … as men … about the feminine universe.
And i smile …. cause i’ve heard lots of contradictory
perceptions over the years.
The most weird thing is that most of the men i know … are dreaming of a woman …. that … sexually would have the
experience of …. a prostitute.
Yes … truth be told …. for men … more than 50% of the story
I was saying … “Stop it!” … cause my intuition was whispering me too loud that i need to stop following a certain path … but … i was only replacing the story itself with another similar story.
And that was my …. way of living.
Well … it was funny cause … i continued to pretend i did not knew why things were like that … but …
Time was passing … and i felt stronger and stronger the energies beyond reality.
I was understanding the illusory dance of energies …. beyond
my reality … but … i continued acting like a person with a paralyzed mind … always ending up … with a paralyzed … soul.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
16
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Life is very well defined in short …. Quotes.
And we really don’t
need so many words
to define reality …
I once had the idea of publishing a book with all my quotes that i’ve written over time.
The idea came to me after reading a collection of quotes … also published as a book … written by the romanian philosopher Emil Cioran.
My book was entitle … “Life seen as a … quote”.
After publishing it … i thought it was a real stupid idea … but i see people are downloading it all the time to read it.
The collection of quotes were written in about 2 years … but what is funny is that all those thoughts are so, so … contradictory that i can’t even believe it … randomly reading them.
It looked like time allowed as my soul to be dominated by all sorts of … energies.
… contradictory energies.
But … i would dare to say today … illusory contradictory energies.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
17
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
I finally understand that my life was a journey of … experiencing all sorts of feelings and emotions.
A huge spectrum … of all those moments that defined my existence.
Imagine now … that all of us would keep a diary … with the most important thoughts that dominated our minds … but also of the feelings that we felt strong in our souls. It should be … at least … an important exercise.
One that we should … try.
… even from today.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
18
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Ghosts … are real. And they influence the present moment a lot.
But they are just reflections of different pieces of our souls.
It happens that i have a property … which i invested a lots of time and energy to build it.
It all took about 5 years to take the project to an end … even if looked like … at that time … that most probably i will never finish it.
But …. I did it.
I had this obsession into my mind to finish it … and … it just happened.
In those years … even if i was reading a lot … i did not knew that … even the success is illusory. So … i saw all as a victory.
I won the war with the builders, with the utility companies, with all the ones that told me that the project itself is a stupid idea … etc etc.
Somehow … i was happy … not really understanding what might happen next.
I’ve rented all the houses … and then problems started to appear … one by one.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
19
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
Broken pipes, problems with the sewage, problems with the quality of water, broken cables etc etc.
And maybe the worst was that i had 2 houses in fire … that were probably caused by some electrical problems.
But later on … real problems started to appear… with all my tenants.
We’ve started to argue on different problems …
They made me complains at all the authorities… ending up in court also.
And it all became a non ending story … that was repeated on and on and on.
My project proved to be a huge problem for my daily life … In fact … a horror.
And it all started from the desire of more.
I wanted financial independence… and i thought that this is going to be my ticket to that financial stage.
But ….
Things proved to be … different … than i thought.
… totally different.
And it took me 2 years and a half to realize what was the mistake i’ve done … that i could not enjoy the success that i’ve succeeded to finish that place. I found a trick … that really worked.
I stoped going there.
And … suddenly all problems … just stopped.
I could not believe it.
I’ve worked for building a residential complex … for 5 years … as into the end to not be allowed to go there.
And i really had an immediate response … each time when i’ve tried to do that.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
20
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
So … only one trick … worked … not to go there anymore … even if it sounded so, so ridiculous. I could not believe it.
And also … could not accept it.
It was… in fact … hilarious.
Work so much … for so many years … and …
After spending so much time and energy … the place refused to allow me to come in visit.
But … finding out the trick … i’ve started to apply it into a dogmatic mode … hoping that i’ll avoid the problems.
not really understanding what the problem was. I was so, so … intrigued ….
On the other hand … i knew i have to meditate more and more … and at the right time … the answer will come to me. I re visualized … the story.
I came back in time … and remembered about all the argues i’ve had with the builders working there … with the architects, with the people from city hall, with the ones from the utility companies …. etc etc … and finally understood that this was the energy in how i’ve built the place.
It all looked very nice into the end … but … the residual energies … of that war i had to win with everyone involved into the project … was a huge problem.
And most probably the ghosts … of the past … reappeared each time when i’ve been coming there.
All was repeated … into a different form. On and on and on.
It was like … even if i succeeded… i continued the war … fighting with … the ghosts from my past.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
21
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
It’s all a real story …. and it’s difficult to accept for me too …
even if i denied it for long, long time.
It all started from my desire of more and more and more ….
forcing people to join accomplishing my dream. But it all became a dream … that i could not enjoy. At the end of this journey … which was my dream of obtaining the financial independence… i was speaking about energies beyond reality …. ghosts from my past … and other weird blablablas.
I was indeed…. ridiculous.
Or maybe not … and that was the reason why i’ve decided to write a book about what is beyond reality.
At least i could speak … in front of readers that were interested about … the subject.
I smile … understanding what the desire of more … made with my life.
I smile … realizing i need to fight with … ghosts.
But at least … i’ve started to see … beyond reality.
… and i loved it.
Understanding why reality is the way it is … seeing how stupid i could be … just because i wanted more and more ….
ending up … continuing being involved in a stupid war … but this time with invisible enemies … was creating the image of a ridiculous life.
but it was … my life. I had to deal with it.
with all those illusions… that were destroying… my nerves. I continued my analyzes… meditating more and more of the influences of the ghosts of the past into the present moment
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
22
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
and why reality looks the way it looks today … but it was so damn difficult to accept that i was the … guilty one.
Damn it ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
23
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Living karmic scenarios
an amazing chance of following the path of awakening
Years ago … i’ve lived an episode that later on … i’ve realized it’s a karmic one.
My friend Paul, which was also involved into this … but mainly as an observer… was laughing of me … as he would be watching an amazing comedy.
In fact … he could not stop himself to continue laughing. Today … looking back in time … I understand the karmic meaning of all … and i also laugh … when we talk about the subject.
But you see … the Universe is giving us new similar tests all the time, so recently i’ve lived the same episode, but into an another form.
Other people, other places … but the same message beyond all what was going on.
My friend … could not stop himself to laugh … again.
He was laughing and laughing … and laughing.
Of course … being friends … we’ve allowed to make fun … each of the other.
We looked … at the other side … seeing the illusion of the self.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
24
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
But this time …. realizing the illusion … i’ve started to laugh
too.
Laugh of the whole situation.
Laugh seeing my friend … laughing of me.
I’ve started to realize when it’s about a karmic stories.
and understand them. I was not mad anymore.
I was not frustrated … either.
I finally realized … that not Paul is laughing of me … but the Universe.
I was sent in weird situations… but … something changed at a difference of … those 3 years.
Same story … but with different karmic characters… sending me the same message.
It was a story … controlled by some energies beyond reality. First time …. I was very annoyed … angry … frustrated … but
fortunately… my reaction in front of the second story was different.
Seeing my friend that could not stop himself … laughing and laughing … i’ve realized … the illusion.
The karmic illusion … or maybe i should say … the karmic test of life.
Should be irrelevant to give you details …. as the stories could look like in one million different forms … but … the most important thing to remind … is to ask ourselves …. “What if this is not what it looks like?! What if God … the Universe … is giving us a test … again?!”.
So … maybe we should look with attention at the signs around ourselves.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
25
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
Don’t mind that someone is laughing of us.
… cause … that might be a clear sign.
Keeping the eyes opened… is a good key for understanding life.
And … realize that beyond the nonsense… there is always a karmic message … that is whispering us something … having the purpose of making us follow the path of awakening. The real … awakening.
But of course… even that might be illusory.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
26
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
In love with the Devil
that looked so much as an Angel …
For me socializing … it’s kind of a hobby.
I’ve always liked it.
And that gave me the chance to talk with thousands of
people … of different ages … both men and women.
Yesterday … i’ve had the chance to meet again … Karl.
He was coming to city … so we’ve drink a coffee together.
Soon after finishing the talk about some businesses we’re
doing together … Karl started to tell me about his love life.
“Gabriel … my friend!
She is the perfect woman.
Blonde, tall, beautiful legs, nice connection … amazing sexual connection…
She’s like no woman which i’ve met before.
In fact …. she’s probably the best woman the Universe sent
to me.
But …. you know … how it is …
There’s always …. a but …
I believe she’s a devil … having the face of an angel. … and that all it’s an illusion.”
I was listening to him … and i almost started to laugh.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
27
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY
philosophical essays
but showing me a photo with her … i was amazing. She was indeed … very beautiful.
Most probably …. an amazing woman …. but my friend thought … that this angel … is the Devil itself.
“Karl … what if you are wrong?! Are you sure of what you feel?!” “Yes. I am sure.
I feel the energies beyond reality. I know what i feel …”
The discussion itself … became almost a nonsense.
We were talking about … an extremely beautiful lady … that my friend … defined so contradictory.
one time as an angel … as few minutes later to tell me … she’s actually … a devil.
I even wanted to ask my friend if he is … a little idiot. How can we have such contradictory perceptions?! How can we define the same person in such a way?! Maybe … my friend lost a little bit his mind.
or maybe he’s not seeing very clear reality.
Or … probably he’s having an emotional balance … and i should just smile … listening to his theories. But how funny is life.
We define so, so often …. the perfect case scenarios for a
beautiful life … especially with our life partners … as into the end to realize … when we meet that person … that it’s all just …. an illusion.
Or … maybe we don’t really believe that perfect scenarios … could ever become … real.
I was continuing to smile to my friend … but ….
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
28
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philosophical essays
Dreaming of a woman …. having the
experience of prostitute … that will come into our lives … directly from the monastery.
… a total nonsense
When i was in middle school … I’ve discussed with the boys … lots of times about women.
Then … in high school … again with lots of my colleagues from those times.
In college … discussions did not stoped.
We continued debating … the subject.
Well … some idiots were talking about football … and other idiots about … ladies.
Today …. I am 45.
When i meet my friends … we talk again and again …. about
… the same subject.
It should be ridiculous to say i am an expert … when it comes about that …. but still … i had so many talks over the years … that maybe i deserve a medal.
This is maybe … one of the reasons … why i’ve decided to write books of … love essays.
Not being … but believing … i am expert … who understood what the feminine spirit it.
Adrian Gabriel Dumitru
29
THE ILLUSORY DANCE OF ENERGIES … BEYOND REALITY philosophical essays
But .. today … i don’t want to talk again about ladies … No …
Just about our perceptions … as men … about the feminine universe.
And i smile …. cause i’ve heard lots of contradictory
perceptions over the years.
The most weird thing is that most of the men i know … are dreaming of a woman …. that … sexually would have the
experience of …. a prostitute.
Yes … truth be told …. for men … more than 50% of the story
