is about sex … and having the right partner for that … it’s extremely important.
But the paradox is that they dream of a hybrid concept …. nun-prostitute.
Yes … this is the real truth.
We … the men … dream about having our own prostitutes … carrying inside of them … the soul that only … a nun … can have.
So …. we tell about ladies … that are difficult to be understood…. but i don’t know who the hell can understand
the mind of a man … when it comes about this subject. Today … i wonder myself … how can we ask to the Universe for a woman …. having the experience of a prostitute… but also expecting as her to come into our lives … directly from the monastery?!
Who could understand… such a nonsense?! Why are men … so, so idiots?!
Maybe we should ask them … the following question …” can a football player become great … studying football from books?!”
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Is that really possible?!
Can a nun … study sex from books or internet … and then appear into our lives … having a greater experience than a prostitute?!
Or maybe … we should ask men … why the hell … we simple don’t stop this emotional dance of wanting … a nun … and then a prostitute?!
What is beyond … this stupid thinking?!
Maybe the fear … of certain energies from past … and the desire of purity into the present moment?!
What about … all those dirty thoughts … about … sexuality?! Well … even after thousands of discussions about this …. I
can’t clearly tell you … what is really going on … into my mind … or the minds of my friends.
We most probably have the brain … of a monkey.
And … we are totally dominated … by the nonsense….
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Understanding the message beyond the message … the only important thing that i should keep in mind
Recently… more people from the stage of my real life … started to tell … very load and aggressive … that they totally dislike what i write.
It’s not that i’ve wrote into a good or bad style … but i’ve wrote my own perceptions … about real things … that i used to see on the stage of my own life.
And one person came to me … complaining.
Then another one.
… and another one.
It was like all the people … that used to know me and also were reading my posts … were trying to send me a message. Well … a very aggressive one … but i was ignoring that. Time was passing … and new and new accusations came to me … and i could not understand why those people were so annoyed.
I just hated that they knew i am a writer.
Really … hated that.
But analyzing more … staying alone and meditating…
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realizing the meaning of this new book which i was writing … “The illusory dance of energies … beyond reality” … i’ve suddenly realize thar i am not looking … at the right … reality.
I had to learn the art of understanding why the present moment looks like the way it looks like … today. In fact … what is controlling reality … or who?!
With what purpose?!
Can we really see … beyond reality?!
Can we understand that all we see … it’s actually …. not what
it looks like?!
But coming back to myself … i ask … looking into the mirror
why can’t i stop myself to … analyze and define …. X, Y, Z etc … and the way the behave … but … ask myself …. what is guiding them … or who?!
What if beyond reality … there are some invisible energies … that are controlling…. just everything?!
X becomes angry … then aggressive … and then he does some stupid things … on the stage of his life.
Nobody understands …. anything … because X … used to be
statistically speaking … a nice person.
So?! What this nonsense?!
Well …. maybe if i look at X … as a soul … and even stop
calling him X …. understanding that he just connected on
very ugly negative energies …. carrying lots of negative
emotions … he becomes into the real world … the reflection of those energies.
We can’t understand his reactions.
Can’t understand why is behaving into such a stupid way … but it’s all about the decision of connecting and accepting…
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certain types of energies …. that simple dominate us … into
such a powerful way … maybe by such a long, long time … The connection between reality … and that invisible world … i was talking about … was that … it was all a decision.
the one of embracing and accepting into such a stupid way
spiritual garbage into our souls.
I’ve realized i need to go deeper into my analyzes… to look beyond X,Y, Z … and understand the souls … and the dance of energies beyond reality
Also accept that all … it’s not what looks like.
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We understand the concept of illusory. We have moments … when we also realize the whole illusion of life … but we live with the hope that all it’s just a silly episode … that sooner or later will … end … anyway.
Realizing the illusion of life … it’s probably … a must … but accepting it … it’s such an annoying thought.
I’ve meditating about the subject .. for years … but i can’t still accept it.
And time was passing… and nothing changed.
…. nothing … just nothing.
Today …. I somehow realize that the meaning of life is … the
awakening … but dreaming about this … as an ordinary person … it’s almost … naive … or i could say … even stupidity.
It’s not that we can’t get it … but it’s such a long, long way … that it’s even useless to talk about the concept.
Many years ago … i’ve wrote an essay with the title … “Awakening can be obtained at the end of a love story”… and i smile now in front of those thoughts … somehow realizing that after a love story … many times … comes another love story.
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And this is how life is … when an illusion ends … another illusion comes into our lives. It’s all a non ending story.
Today … i live … with the strong belief … that reality itself it’s in fact controlled by energies beyond the scene of life.
The Universe is talking to us … about illusions which comes as fear, anxiety, anger … and all the others illusory negative emotions … that are actually the real proof that the illusion of the self … is always there … active.
In fact … all becomes a story … maybe not about the illusion of life … but about the illusion of the self.
Same reality can be seen by someone as something positive
but also …. by someone else …. as the end of the world. And maybe the perceptions … which many times are so damn contradictory… can’t really be multiple truths.
But even when we try to define the concept of truth …. we realize … it’s so illusory.
Maybe the worst …. after going deeper and deeper … we understand it’s all … an illusion.
Going out of it … it’s maybe a decision. The one that it all had a purpose.
To teach us … something.
Energies beyond the scene of life …. made as things to happen into a way … in how the Universe was whispering us something.
having maybe the purpose to get us out of the illusion of the self.
The only problem is that we are probably… idiots. The lessons need to be repeated on and on and on. We realize …. what is going on … but …
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Well … we still have the belief that we are smarter than the … Infinite Intelligence.
We believe … we can fool … the Universe.
We accept the illusion … understand its purpose … but … Then … laughing behind our back … the Universe sends us into another illusion … and then another one … and another one …
And all we do next … is just complain … that life sucks … forgetting about all the messages… we’ve got … by the help of our intuition…
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Always look beyond the mask. What you see … is never what it looks like.
So … just use … all
your senses …
Few days ago …. I’ve met Maria again.
I was walking on the streets … and suddenly she appears in front of my eyes.
I was happy to see her … cause we not see each other … maybe … by already 2-3 years.
We always talk on chat … or on telephone… but seeing her … i had a weird feeling.
In all our conversations… she really looked to me …. like a
real friend … but seeing her … face to face …. I’ve realized it’s
stupid of me to call her … my friend.
Maria is now 67 …. and it’s a great painter … obsessed about
representing into her artwork … religious symbols.
She always tells me … about philosophy of religion, but also about the symbols used into her painting … but to be honest … i can’t always understand her message.
Now she was trying to tell me again about her latest ideas … but when it came about the connection between me and her … i’ve realized … something was really wrong.
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I felt her energy … her spiritual level … and even if she knew so much about religion… and talk her much about that … i could not consider her anymore …. my friend.
My intuition was telling me … that something was … wrong … but all i could do was to … accept her … as she was.
Maybe … she was living some difficult times that she was not telling me anything about … but … our connection became so … fake.
I was polite … pretending all was ok … but … i was sorry i lost that connection.
I was even sorry about the fact that …. I can see beyond
reality and understand things that usually … not so long time ago … i could not understand.
I kissed her … said good bye … and left.
I somehow wanted as this to be our last meeting … and close a connection with this soul … that was so lost today.
So … maybe it’s good … or maybe not … to analyze and define the status of our connections… even if the real truth … will bring a little bit of …. sadness ….
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And one day … we’ll have to accept that we are not … gods
When i first saw the movie with the law of attraction… i was trilled.
Somehow … my intuition was whispering me about this theory … long, long time ago … but having the confirmation from such great philosophers … was just amazing.
I felt that my life …. will change.
And it really changed.
I’ve become richer and richer … but somehow i still felt … that there are still things which i don’t understand.
I’ve started to believe that it was all into my power to create absolutely everything was into my mind.
And maybe … even … that i am kind of a little god. Going back in time …. remembering about all those thoughts… i’ve started to laugh.
Yes … i was laughing of myself.
… of my naivety … which recently was metamorphosed into … what i could clearly define as … stupidity.
I illusory believed … i was into the full control … of my reality. That i could just define what i want … and then … just attract more and more … of anything i have into my mind.
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But … as any other stupid human being … believing it’s a little god … i’ve started to ask for more and more stupid things.
I could not ask … for wisdom.
for beautiful vibes.
for becoming a better soul.
for anything that could make me start the real spiritual evolution …
No … No … No …
And … I was just continuing… playing around …. the role of a god.
Of course … of a stupid god.
I don’t really know if i could define myself as a … devil … but i knew for sure … that i was not on the right … path.
I felt it …
But still continued … doing stupid things.
The little gods that were dominating my soul … telling me … do that …. and that … and that … were having full control on my being.
And … funny … but also … even ridiculous… is that i liked this stupid role … which i was playing.
…. Believing… i am a little god.
Of course … as i mentioned before… a stupid one.
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Not liking the vibes around
… such an ugly sensation
I had many moments when i felt that i am not in the right place.
And i even ... hated it.
The environment itself gave me a weird ugly vibe …. which i
could not really understand at all.
I was looking around … and all looked normal … but …
Yes … it was a .. but …
… maybe a big one.
I could not really understand what was going on.
So …. I’ve started to meditate ….
I even asked some of my friends that had spiritual knowledge… why the hell … this is happening … but …. Again … it was all unclear.
For me … but also for others …
And I frequently had this sensations.
Of course … i found also places which i liked and gave me good vibes … but also many … where i did not felt ok.
In fact … i felt kind of a pressure on my soul … that was trying to dominate me.
… into such a negative way.
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But … i looked … and studied much deeper all … and everything looked ok …
All normal …. nothing weird … to explain to myself those
negative vibes.
Today … i somehow believe that beyond reality are actually … some forces … which we could name energies … that are responsible for the vibe of that place.
And you could go to a beautiful coffee shop …. and not feel
good … not really understanding the nonsense.
Well … maybe people with ugly energies were recently visited the place.
or maybe someone died there because of a heart attack. Or … a couple argued there … few hours ago.
Or … or … or …
So … the places … get energies from the souls that were there … and the real problem becomes that those energies act as … ghosts.
They influence all the others that comes into the place.
of course … the theory itself … looks as a nonsense … but i keep living with this weird sensations … in many of the places which i visit.
And i don’t really know what the hell … should i believe ….
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