I was listening to him and could not understand a thing.
I ever said … “But … it’s a nonsense … cause your wife … is a real beautiful lady”.
He looked like a person …. that lost his minds … but later on
i’ve understood that … he was only wanted to end that story.
He could not stand his wife anymore.
He could not stand his marriage anymore.
At that time … i was not understanding… a thing. For me … all looked like a … nonsense.
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My friend was a famous plastery doctor … and an ok person.
His wife …. a great pianist … and a very beautiful lady.
… and they looked great together.
Really looked great … as a couple … or at least this is … what i saw.
All i could repeatedly ask was … how can this guy can’t stand anymore make love with such a beautiful lady?! How can that really happen?!
Well … i was really silly at that time.
I could not understand this dance of energies …. between a
couple.
I could not understand those weird reactions … the partners could have.
They simple hated each other.
Could not stand anymore …. the energy of the connection
between the 2 of them.
I was looking at my friend … and could not realize what was
into his mind … but he just felt trapped in a prison with
invisible walls … and could not stand to stay there anymore.
Few years later … i’ve met him one day walking into a park ..
in a company of another lady.
He was calm.
They both were around the age of 55 years old.
I could realized that they liked being together … and they enjoyed the walk from the park.
I could almost not recognize my friend.
Not seeing him for so many years … and seeing him in such contradictory stories … i’ve somehow started to see the importance of the connection.
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Seeing the same person … extremely unhappy…. but also
happy … into the connection with a woman … revealed to me ….maybe i should pay more attention at the dance of energies beyond reality.
and try to understand all that … or at least … pay more attention …
Cause … understanding how connections works … or not work
it’s probably… an essential thing for a beautiful life …
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Between a whore
and a bitch … simple choose the nicest devil
Few years ago …. i’ve been into the position of choosing in
my sentimental life … between a bitch and a whore.
I’ve wrote a lot about that subject … a lot.
I even wrote an essay having a similar title, but even if i’ve said that between a bitch and a whore … it’s better to choose being alone … i’ve continued my life with … the bitch.
Today i see all as a … nonsense … and my decision from that time … made me waste another few years of life.
So … i’ve wrote … advising the others … that between a whore and a bitch we should simple decide to be alone … but into my private life … i’ve chose to continue my life near … the bitch.
which was really stupid and proved that i am saying one thing … but i am actually doing something totally different.
like any other theoretician.
But today … i feel a little bit … changed.
If i would get back in time …. I would not choose the bitch
anymore.
No …
And i would not decide to be alone either …
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I would simple … switch the path of my life …. and be in the
company of … the whore.
You see… the bitch … is a devil.
The whore … a devil also … but one that make the life look sweet.
So …. all i am saying is that life gives us the choice to choose
… even when it comes about ….poisson.
And we need to decide how we destroy ourselves … with a poisson having an ugly taste … or with a tasty one.
Sounds … stupid … but all those things i am talking about … are real case scenarios… and we simple need to live and experience life … sometimes into a disgusting energies … emanated by a person, defined as a bitch … or an amazing illusory energy .. that makes us feel … just great.
But … indeed …. whatever we would choose … it’s all part of
the journey … called … life.
… experiences … that we must simple … live.
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In front of the illusion … seeing the
emotional balance of the people from the scene of our lives … we can only smile. Anything else … is useless …
Last few years represented for me … what i would define as … karmic years.
And … somehow … i’ve started to realize how it all works. I’ve realized … but also accepted that i need to live … in a form of another … some life experiences. I can avoid them.
I can delay …. on and on and on … everything …. but into the
end … if i don’t see the karmic message … everything will repeated to me … in a more and more aggressive way. And it’s funny cause life putted me in front of lots of situations.
I believed … in such an illusory way … that those episodes appeared …. to torture me … but … I was not seeing the message.
I mean … the message beyond the message.
I got furious and frustrated … maybe one million times … not being able to realize that the meaning of all those people and situations … was to make me understand the human interconnections.
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But … no matter how much i was meditating …. on the stage
of the real life … i was losing the control on myself … not
really knowing how to act in front of the karmic characters.
I treated them as real … even if i knew that their illusory
behavior was actually just a representation of the life lessons
which i have to experience.
And i failed.
I failed … big …
I failed … one million times … not accepting that i need to treat with infinite love and infinite understanding …. all the people from the scene of my life.
same as i was have the expectation … as them to treat me. Easy … easy … somehow I’ve understood and learnt … the theories about karma and karmic characters … but still … on the scene of the real life … i’ve always failed the tests in my relationships with the people i’ve met.
I treated the human emotional balance … as real …. and … Actually … i was not really understanding so, so deeply … the concept of the illusion of life … and also the illusion of the self.
I was believing … i was … i … and refused to accept that all those people i see into my life … are actually my reflection and i should treat them … indeed … with infinite love and … infinite understanding.
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One idiot can destroy
everything around . Don’t underestimate
those relationships.
I am doing all my best to understand my life … but also … the life itself.
I am daily trying to meditate and to go deeper and deeper so that i can realize … what is beyond reality.
..: why my life runs well … or all it’s a catastrophe.
And why some people appear from nowhere just to … ruin my life.
I hate the theory that all the people from my life … are actually a reflection of my soul. I just … hate it.
I know it’s true … but i hate it.
Today for example i had some guests … a couple with their kids …. that came to visit into my complex … one of my tenants.
It was his brother … with his family.
I came …. and the first second i put my feet on the property…
i just felt a very weird … stupid energy.
I sit on a chair … i’ve asked someone to give me a coffee … but still … i totally disliked the energy.
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2-3 hours ago … i was simple relaxing there … and i adored the energy …. but now i was simple disliking all around myself.
I had a weird feeling … that suddenly all changed … and i could not believe it.
The couple and the kids that were visiting us … were somehow dominating all around.
All those ugly energies … which i felt …. I strongly believed
that were 100% related to them.
Into the end … they left.
10 minutes later … the vibration of the place became nice again.
So … what the hell really happened?!
I felt great there … i left … then came back and realized i totally dislike something … but did not knew what … and 10 minutes after the couple left … i started to feel great again. It was …. like a mystery all what was going on … but i knew for 100% that all was related to that family.
Indeed … some people … simple ruin everything around themselves.
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Try to understand the root of the problems
… not the effects of it
I look back in time … and i smile … realizing how i’ve been acting on many of the episodes … when the Universe gave me some tests of life.
I smile … cause i remember myself complaining and being a victim of circumstances …. not really understanding that i was the one that was generating everything.
I was the cause … but also the effect.
For example … when i remember about all the problems which i had as a landlord … it took me years to accept that instead of complaining about the situations with my tenants
i should remember all those times when i was trying to save 1 dollar from doing that … 1 dollar from doing that etc etc.
I actually had to remember that my main purpose was only to have as many properties as possible … so that i can have more tenants … and of course … make more money.
I did not cared about the quality of the things i was doing. I did not cared of the experience i was actually created for my future guests.
I had into my mind … just the idea of money.
of having more and more.
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And into the end … of course i was paying the price for that. My intentions… generated everything … but i was not aware of that.
All what happened … all the effects of my focus on money … not carrying about the experiences that people will have in my houses …. all … was actually induced by myself.
I did not realized … and actually not cared at all about the fact that my intentions were writing the script of … my life. And problems started to appear.
One …. then another one …. and another one …
It was like i was living a non ending karmic scenario … but … i could not admit that i was the root of my problems. Me …
My thinking ….
…. and my stupid intentions.
I had to redefine my philosophy as a landlord … and focus … first of all not on making money, but on creating nice … and why not amazing experiences… for my clients.
Look beyond reality … and accept that all starts … with a thought.
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All we see is just a reflection … so … just smile …
I’ve wrote before and maybe i’ll still write about my karmic experiences.
I always found them weird, annoying … and many times i’ve lost the control on myself … hating all those people that were destroying my good mood … ruining in fact anything was good into my life.
But what i found weird is that all the karmic characters were in fact …. my friends … then my enemies …. then my friends again …
A total nonsense in fact ….
I knew that actually 2 people can be friends because they are probably on the same vibration … but could not accept that those persons were somehow metamorphosed into … enemies.
metamorphosed into characters that had into their minds
just to ruin my reality.
I was reading a lot about spirituality and knew that all i see is just a reflection of my soul … and a spiritual concept i’ve accepted it … but ….
Into my real life … i was refusing to believe this could be true.
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and i was running into a circle … metamorphosing myself from friend to enemy and seeing all the ones from the stage of my life … doing the same.
On and on … and on…
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Same place …. same you … but feeling
totally different vibes.
And it all looks like a nonsense …
I am writing … near a lake.
I write and i feel great.
I stay here alone … and it’s just amazing.
I hear the birds …. the wind … and i just love all those vibes
… similar with the ones i can see in a … delta.
I drunk … here … near the lake …. maybe few hundreds of
bottles of wine … but today not drinking alcohol anymore … i just stay here … enjoy the vibes and … write my thoughts. But what is funny … is that into the same place … I randomly feel also bad vibes.
And i am 100% sure …. It’s not from the nature, but from
the people who are around me at that time … or had visited recently the place.
I suddenly understand that … all i see into the present moment … it’s a mix of energies … and this emotional balance of mine … feeling good or bad … into the same place
that looks amazing all the time …. Is actually a reflection of the energies beyond reality.
…. the energies of all the people that are there … or around the area.
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I can somehow conclude … it all somehow becomes a cocktail of energies …
And watching the timeline … i see such a large spectrum of vibes.
I have moments when i allow all those energies to penetrate me … but also many moments when i can understand what is going on … and become more selective. I feel the energies … and i just smile …
I connect to them … but also refuse … to connect …
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Being just a story … a number … which
we can call X … such an useless scenario to talk about …
But maybe we forget what a … connection is …
Studying my businesses … i’ve realized that somehow … the main purpose of all what i was doing was to meet more and more people.
